I am not worthy....

Last year i was involved with a wonderful women's bible study at our church called Renew. It was every thursday morning from 9:15 to 11:30. You have a small group that meets for an hour (kinda like sunday school) and then after meet to have worship and bigger study group. In small group there is about 20 to 25 women at 1st and then it kinda dwindles down to about 10 in the group by the end of the year. You have 2 leaders 1 is a study leader and the other is a prayer mentor. (I had the best ones last year:) These women i met over this past year have been amazing. They have takin me under their wings, loved me, and constantly prayed for me. All together there is about 250 women and numerous small groups. Why i am talking about this is b/c it has really impacted my life. 

For the last 2 years i have the wonderful pleasure of leading a group of 10 high school girls with my wonderful friend Emilie McCormack and now they have all graduated. I miss these girls more than i could have ever imagined!  They were like my daughters and some of them still call me Momma Doy. But God has kinda closed that door of leading a group for this year and I felt like i need to focus more on the other 2 bible studies that i am in.... but God had even more planned for me! 

2 weeks ago i was asked to be a Prayer Mentor for Renew. My jaw dropped! The only thing i could think is I am so not worthy of this position nor do i deserve it. After talking to some wonderful christian women........ they all  said that i wasn't suppose to feel worthy or like i deserve it God is the one who guides you and will lead you.  Over this past weekend we had a retreat to kick off the new year of Renew called "I am Your Jesus". It was so uplifting and you could feel the Holy Spirit when I was with these women. I still am not feelint very worthy but over the weekend i learned with God I can do anything. Where God spoke to me the most was in a verse i found in bible study over the weekend:

Psalm 119:12&13 (The message) Be blessed, God; train me in your ways of wise living. I'll transfer to my lips all the counsel that comes from your mouth. 

I am praying that anything I say to these women or pray to these women that is comes straight from God. His counsel is what i need in all of the words I say to them each week. I am very nervous and excited. I am asking for prayer that i will have the ability to make God proud with each and everything that i say and do!! Love you all!!

Here is a short clip of what Renew is all about!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYiPmuqjxQ0